A Jealousy Issue: Somebody Shoot Me, I Think I'm In Love Lyrics

a note to self
i vow to purge you both of your warmest thoughts
and strike you down with this hateful gaze
with these words i wish you the worst
with these words i promise poison
beware this bitter breath
for it brings arsenic
beware this artic stare
for it will pierce you like icicles
this is as happy as i'll ever be
cold and comfortable in these sour times
what do you expect
what do you want from me
this bitten lip can draw no more blood from me
these carved smiles can heal so quickly
it's time to slice her heart from your sleeve
i desire destruction
when will it collapse

once again
you're flashing me those blues
and i'm remembering why i'm wasting days
if i had the nerve
i'd drain all your beautiful
all you're good for is burning bloodstreams
each movement makes music
a chemical touch that would send shocks
but you're destined for display only
the most i could hope for is to smear the glass
these heavy fingertips
leaving trails of scattered skin and cracked porcelain
tell me what i haven't got
because i'd kill to get it
tell me what i haven't got
don't tell me, he's got it
who's on the receiving end of those perfect lips

i bleed through every single day
with this burden labeled heart
worn thin by disappointment
hanging by a thread
a magnet for incisions
it has made me weak
an accomplice to malfunction
filled to the brim with lead
it serves no purpose
i have no need for this heart
for it receives no love at all
so impractical in it's nature
just a charming paperweight
defined only by shape not worth
i curse this heart
i wish it death
one stitch could save me
this heart just needs a spark
but it will not come soon enough
and i will once again be lost beneath the black
i curse this heart
i wish it death

tears overcome blistering rain
the truth of you arrives
and i wish i could let this die
like each wasted breath
but these things never mend
it must always end
with your head held up high
and star shaped slits
carved into each of my wrists
your hands are held against my face
craving faint reminders of every tear
that coalesces with the wintry night
i called you mine
and i can't let this die
throught the darkest night
one last heartfelt glance
will cross these constellations
and i can't let this die
i can't let this fade
1-2-3-4
deviate me frm these sacrificed seconds
spent dreaming of your eyes
pouring lies and letting my heart inhale
full breaths of you
like lungs deprived of your air
and i'm lucky i can still breathe
after what you did to me
i still have one last breath
i need to see those eyes
i still have one last breath
don't just end it all

chaos has never had a prettier package
a short but sweet disaster
i never had a chance to avoid such an explosion
now it all comes crashing down
let this serve as a reminder
of the day somebody loved me
will i stain your precious world
just like you have stained mine
it all started with a goodbye
but you'll never die with distance
crush me with a kiss and let your lipstick
stain this collar before you go